记录20日9月2008年-

期待！期待！期待！今天可是我的大日子哦！
前几天就开始幻想今天可会怎样的，只希望会跟一群好朋友一起渡过。
我们要去瀑布哦！好期待！好开心哦！
一大早就起床啦！我可不像你一样这么猪哦！XD 要去巴刹买东西

pray hard that you will stay strong. pray hard for the best of you.

i always hope that i can be the one who will heal your wound. as time goes on, i started to realise what a fool i am.

you are always looking for a person who can wipe off your tears, sorry but im not that person. you have realised it soon enough, left the fool having his great imagination at the corner.

you will and you must be happy! life goes on as if no one would slow down to even have a look on neither of us. does this even matter? it does. felt being lonely is what torture the most. when you think that the whole wide world dont slow down for the damn of you, forget about that thought. no matter what it is, i always care for you.

there's been a long silence between us for a very long time, even from the time we both know each other. i have kept those words in me. telling you how much i care for you will not work any longer but to hide it. hide it under everything, every spoken words.

i read a tank filled with tears between the lines. be strong, be well, be happy.

having another look at your smile will be a gift from God which i pray every moment for it.

found a girl with great emo. what's so amazing about being emo?

you will be fine

i will be missing you, in the corner where i hide myself from you.

 

i hate to crap and blow water infront of the person i care

it just make me hate myself after everything is finished

i will just put aside all the things where i always wanted to tell u. things tat i would desperate for you to noe. things tat i would desperate to tell u

stupid mouth...

i would forever remember that u say im like a playboy. why? coz i always sweet talk??? THIS IS ONLY FOR U for the person i care

i would try everything to make u cheer up. i just wan u to smile. and this is where all the sweet talk comes...not to forget those stupid acts

this is something where i keep repeat myself again and again

 

the reality is harsh n tough

we always hide in our own shell to protect ourselves, giving reasons that we are not ready for the outside world or watever that is happening. there's always a time where we nid to face it, cruel or not

when its tough, doenst mean we do not have to face it. this is where we nid to stand strong for it, a part of growth. this is where we will learn to be strong, for things we noe it will hurt us badly.

you might be confuse, be protective against urself. tat is very common, but there will be always an expiry date for it.

how long i nid to hide and run from it? its time? i cant even hav an answer for it. i cry for the answer

but somehow i feel there's something

to let go? NO

to wait?

let time decide?

even when im not here, my mind will always be here. please do not forget that my blessings and wishes are specially for you. they are at ur side, no matter what it is. please be fine. do not forget the words i used to tell u. so sorry to myself that im being not able to tell you more

i used to read a chinese novel. at the end of it, the girl wrote a letter to the guy. she uses all her strength and taken years(months) to write it. this part is not related to the above bloggin... i hope someday my writings can touch someone deep in the heart. the letter the girl wrote has made the guy cried. it might not be the words she used, but the feelings she noted onto the paper wit ink. of coz, my piece of art will not be in english nor malay. it shall be in pure chinese, the one i tried very hard for it.

my blog was used to be in english, that was a very innocent starting point. soon it changed to chinese. now, i might translate some, or even put it whole in english, juz for the people i care.

another thing, driving is fun. siting beside is hell boring. speeding is more fun, but my car cant. i drive safe, for the people i care. driving seems like a very personal time and space for me. a traped dimension, just for me. where my mind could fly without wings, to the sky of endless springs. going far is great. going somewhere u are not familiar with is scary.

i try to make new fren in new surrouding. just feel weird, no reason. its like i couldnt lay my trust on them. coz i just noe them for days? somehow i meet someone very special. and i dunno how i start calling her my PRO sifu. a silly joke to myself? or to that person. i hope this will last. i believe in what i feel. i felt that i can trust her. sometimes she makes silly joke...very silly. craps alot. i never noe who this person with. just an extraordinary person i chat via msn. someone who is a fren of my fren. now, my fren.

*sharing is caring-i hope there will be a 2nd part for this post*

an endless night for me.

how much i wish to look at the sunrise again, wit the old people, you noe who you are

its time to move on

ky~